January 06. 2004 20:03

Return to school

School started again today and life immediately returned to the rhythm it had before December. Waking up before nine, going to school, having lunch, sitting at class, returning home to cook dinner and working a bit after that, and writing this diary.

I have some problems with getting official numbers and all for some classes now. It's really annoying -_- Matt-sensei thought that I didn't need to sign up for them and Ken-san also thought that we can just arrange it all at the International Office, but my CG teacher now won't give me a number because I haven't officially signed up. So I need to go to Ken-san and ask him to clear this all out. Damn them all, they make this too difficult -_- Someone should really figure out the details of these things!

Well, that's about everything that happened today. The thing about school is that the days are all kinda the same when you are there, so there's nothing to write about ^_^;; I had Japanese, then a break for 2 hours (during which I wrote a letter and started an essay), then lunch, a lecture of Comparative Comics and finally CG. Dion's back in town and I saw Noah for the longest time, he's been home for the holidays. And that's it ^_^;; (And my next door neighbour is sick. ...and the effect of that on my life is tremendous.)

Ah, there's one thing I'd like to clear about the entry I wrote about "attracting men". Ravie asked me if I got over it during the new year and asking that sounded so wrong that it started annoying me. What I wrote about is not something you "get over". It's a basic instinct, it's always there, if not actively in your mind then in the back of your head. You can't get over it any more than you can get over attraction to the other sex O_o (Assuming you're heterosexual. If you're not, replace that with the sex you're attracted to.) So the reason I was writing about it was not because it was a phase that I was going through at that moment, but because I had been thinking about it and wanted to write about how interesting the concept is (that even though I'm not interested in getting into a relationship, my instinct sometimes tells me to act like I would be).

And on a related matter I'd like to state that usually when girls dress up, they don't do it for men but for themselves. (Now the reader has to again have the wits to notice that I jumped onto a completely different topic that doesn't include attracting any sex ^_^) I think a lot of people are (half-)aware of this, but I've just heard so many conversations about it and men commenting on how girls like to dress up so that men stare at them that I wanted to say it again. Even if a girl shows a lot of skin, it's not necessarily because she's dressing up to be hot, but can be just because she happens to like wearing those clothes. They had a conversation in class about why girls in Japan wear such short skirts, and the girls anwered that because all the other girls do and they "compete". I, myself, like to wear short skirts and shirts that are cut to fit because they're convenient, and because they make me feel good. If I know the clothes on me look good it raises my self esteem and makes me relax, which equals to me feeling good. So, hearing someone say that girls wear short skirts explicitly for men makes me want to smack them :P

Now I'm gonna go off writing php and essays and reading my e-mail, because I just got a sky mail telling me to keep secret something that someone sent me, and I really want to know what it is ^_^ (By the way, this is the list of essays I have to write: 4-6 pages on the topics of the Issues in Manga course, 2 pages about the change in American comics in 1970 (plus a B4 image of what I've learned during the course) and x pages of thoughts from different angles about the networks of 21st century related to art. Or that's what I know of. Then I have 2 tests and of one course I have no idea yet, but I suppose it's gonna be another essay. And there might be a surprise essay for the History of Manga course, though Matt-sensei hasn't said anything about it. So, lots of writing ahead, better start while I still have free time.)