October 28. 2004 22:15

A wide range of feelings for one day

Uhhuh, my mood's been jumping up and down all day. I started by oversleeping and missing the appointment with my Japanese teacher. Neither Heidi or Laura came to her today, so I was able to move my lesson to right before lunch, but I felt somewhat flushed waking up like that. Actually, it was my mobile phone's fault, the battery ran out and the alarm didn't work...

After the Japanese class my brain was filled with difficult grammar rules, but it cleared soon and then I was on such a happy mood that passing people smiled to me and said hi ^_^ That was so great, I love being happy =^_^= After lunch it was Comparative Comics and Matt-sensei brought us comics to read as always. I have a bad habit of drowning myself in the comics so deep that I can' follow class... This time it was especially difficult as I was reading Maus, a kind of semi diary-like story about a guy who interviews his father about his experiences in Nazi Germany as a Jew. It was so sad, all the things the Jews had to go through in World War II... I was almost crying then and just writing about it here brings tears to my eyes. I almost couldn't tear myself away from it when class ended. After that my head was full of thoughts again.

I wasn't feeling at all as cheery about the upcoming CG class as I did in the morning... The CG itself isn't what makes me cheery, but the teacher :P He's kinda cool. Rubic's cube is supposed to be very difficult to finish, right? Well, I watched the CG teacher finish it in a few minutes when we were making a 3D rubic's cube, like it was nothing more than arranging books in a bookshelf. How can I not think a teacher like that is cool? *^_^* Plus, he's very nice to me and makes sure I understand what he's talking about. I'm sure nobody else understands what's so great about this, but that's okay ^_^ Anyway, my head was too full so I couldn't enjoy the class. In fact, I peeked into my mailbox during class and found it flooding, so after the class I was exhausted... I hadn't felt that tired since the beginning of summer. It was one of those times one just wants to fall down on one's bed and stare at the roof.

On the way home I started to get some of my energy back, though. The full moon was up and the sky was clear, so I was able to watch it when I rode my bike towards home. I thought about taking my comp and working out so I could watch the moon at the same time... But then my boyfriend called, which suddenly made me annoyed. I know he misses me and I don't blame him, but somehow I've never been the type that suffers from spending some time away from the ones I love. But he's the exact opposite. In fact, the way he's waiting for me to talk to him at least once a week wears me out...

When we're at home I every once in a while want to spend "quality time" with Ravie, but he would never just sit peacefully with me, he's too energetic for that. He has to always have something to do, or at least something he can concentrate on. So, when he comes home, he usually goes to the computer or the TV and we never spend a nice, quiet evening together. Even when we do something like that, he either finds something he can do on the side, like reading a paper, or then he concentrates on me so intently that I feel uneasy. When I go away, though, even if it's just fo a few days, he starts to miss me right away and demands that I keep in touch. I'd rather take more time together when we are together and take the time apart to relax in solitude...

It's not that I would mind talking to him while we're apart, I do want to keep in touch with him, too, and it's easy and convenient with instant messaging over the Internet. But when I'm writing I'm tied to the computer and can't do anything else. And when we talk he's at work, so at times I have to wait for him to finish what he's doing and answer. Mainly the point of our conversations is just to be online so we can feel close, which is fine. (Actually it's the exact and only thing I need when I'm feeling lonely...) If only I could do it so that I wouldn't have to keep my eyes to the screen and my fingers on the keyboard... Ravie sent me a headset so we could use voice messaging, so that might help my frustration as it frees my hands, but Ravie can't use it at work so we haven't tried yet.

And now it's this late again. I bought more Copic Markers today and was supposed to draw something nice with them this evening, but I can't start now that it's this late... I have 42 Sketch markers + blender and 7 Comic markers + blender. Magical numbers ^_^ They're pretty different on paper than in the listing, by the way, but that' okay... I have a nice set now so I can make some Inu-Yasha art ^__^ (I have a nice sketch of Inuyasha and Kagome in my sketchbook and there's a colour that's exactly what Miroku's robes are, so I'm itching to do something with that and the coral red of Sango's costume... I wonder if it's a complete coincidence that Sango's clothes are coral colour and her name means "coral" as well? ^_~) Aaah, what should I do... Maybe I could snitch a bit off from sleeping? ó_ò