November 17. 2004 23:59

Stupid things. But NaNoManga is fun.

That damn report... I never went to that class. I never finished that report yesterday... I fell asleep next to the computer, so I thought it'll be better if I sleep over the night and then finish it in the morning. But, oh the joy, I slept in. Why does this always happen? Why can't I wake up to the alarm clock?! It annoys me so much. I need an alarm clock with a snooze, or two alarms. I fought with myself for a while on whether I wanted to give the teacher the plain notes from the tutor or whether I wanted to give a clean print... After several changes of mind the print won.

I only had about ten minutes before class when I finally got to the International Office. I asked the woman from yesterday if she could write the thing out on the computer, because I really couldn't read all that kanji so fast... But she's not allowed to help students to get their credits :/ (I felt ashamed for asking.) But she could write the furikana, how the kanji were read, so I could write them myself. It was surprisingly fast with a Japanese Word, it usually guessed the right kanji straight away O_o (Computer programs are so smart.) But still, it took me almost the whole 1,5 hours the lecture would have been to write the whole report out.

I felt so stupid after that. Why did I have to go through all that trouble if I didn't even go to class to give the report to the teacher? I could've spent more time translating it myself, so I wouldn't have had to make the tutor do it. I could've gone to listen to the lecture instead of trying to write it out, so I wouldn't have had to bother that woman at the office either. I could've just given the tutor's notes to the teacher even though they were a bit messy. Hell, I could've just given the English version and said I couldn't write it in Japanese. But no, I wanted to do it the hard way, stress about it for a whole day and miss one lecture for it -_- So stupid.

But on the bright side, I won't have to bother about it anymore. And it's not like missing one lecture will kill me. I just feel stupid, that's all. Earlier I felt even more stupid and frustrated, but because I had to write it into this diary, I had to sort it out in my head, and after that I felt a little better. It's a good thing to keep a diary... Earlier it was difficult to see the whole picture, but now I'm at least aware of what the stupidest points of this mess were. And I can accept them, or put them aside as they are. It's just another stupid thing I've done in my life, nothing more.

On the way home I almost ran over Dion. He was amazed when he heard I had been at school until six (I always am when it's Studio lessons). He didn't come to school again today, he doesn't take studying very seriously here. He says he's a pretty good student at home, but here he just slacks off all the time ^_^ It's kinda fun, though, the way they don't expect us to do all the work the Japanese students do, just because we don't understand the language. They had some kind of test at school today, but the teachers didn't even mention it to me. Moreso, I still have no idea what we should be doing during Editing lessons, so I can just do my own projects ^_^ (Like my NaNoManga today.)

My NaNoManga's first chapter with the title image is exactly 50 images ^_^ I'd like to make more, of course, but finishing the first chapter is my goal. I did the base plan of the apartment the characters are living in at school today and then some page planning, and I just finished it all for the first chapter. Next I'll start drawing. I'm in charge of taking out the trash in the morning next week, so I thought I'd go to school right after that, so I'll have lots of time to work. I'm not sure I can work much next two days because I have other classes, but Satuday is free so I should be able to start then, if not earlier. I'll put all my strenght to it so I can finish it in time! ^_^

I bought more CDs and manga again today. This time I was attracted to the cover image rather than the goodies in the Margaret magazine I bought, but the wall calendar is a nice bonus ^_^ I'll be in so muh trouble when I need to get this all back home, though... And the CDs I bought were from a second hand dealer in from of the A-Coop. I bought something random from him the last time, too, but this time I was more aware of what I was looking for, so it was easier. I really wanted a male voice singing to my ear, so I searched out a nice looking CD by a male singer. I got Love by Ryuichi Kawamura. Never heard of him, but the CD cover was nice ^_^ The music is almost what I was looking for, so I'm satisfied. Then I got one CD by Do As Infinity, one more by Hysteric Blue, a L'Arc-en-Ciel CD that has all the singles I remeber by name (that means they're among the best of L'Arc-en-Ciel, even though I'm generally not a fan of them) and a Glay CD just, well, because I knew the name. Then I happened to find a Namie Amuro CD with the track Can You Celebrate?, which I had listed as one of the songs I had heard and wanted, even though I didn't know it was by Namie Amuro. What great coincidence ^_^ 300 yen a CD is a price I'm willing to pay for CDs I know nothing about ^_^

when I was looking at the CDs, a weird old man came to talk to me in English. He was awfully interested in my musical taste, where I was coming from and what I was doing here... I was a bit nasty and tried to ignore him as best I could without clearly pretending deaf. He was somewhat hurt when I left quickly, but I was really in no mood to be gentle with weird men... And he felt like a real creap O_o

Well, I guess I should organize my school stuff for tomorrow, it's Japanese in the morning again. And I should get something to eat, even though I'm not really hungry... I laid off the dieting today and just ate all I wanted, an ice cream at school (they had soft ice in a plastic pot that you put inside a machine that squeezes it out O_o) and American dogs and tamagoyaki for dinner. There weren't any inari sushi today, though... :( I really wanted to eat them. But just this made me really full. They say a no-diet day every once in a while is good, though, it keeps your body going and you from getting too frustrated. But tomorrow it's dieting again.

Oh yeah, I bought 10 more Copic markers today. That'll be the last ones, though, now I should have all the hues I need... I hope. I've put a lot of money in them, but, well, I really like them. And in Finland they'd cost even more ^_^